mmm

just got back to the fullerton apt. traffic wasnt too bad. funny how when nobodys lived in this apt for alittle over a week, it starts smelling husky. i went around spraying the place so now it smells "mountain fresh" i forgot how much i liked being alone in this apt, not that i dont like being with my roommates, but i like the freedom of being 100% of my nasty self, with nobody watching. i could walk around naked, but even i dont want to witness that. anyway i bought two new books at barnes and noble last night, before we went off to the hookah bar, so i think im set for the next 2 hours before i head off to work. i have my books to my left and a bowl full of frozen grapes on my right, waiting for me. im set.

yuck

feeling wayyyy under the weather. im not sure if its my allergies acting up, since i didnt get my allergy shots this week, or im just sick. either way my nose is a leaking faucet, actually more like a running faucet, nasty. i just want to snuggle up on the couch with dory and read all the books ive been meaning to read. mm some berryblossom tea sounds good too. oh jesus, i need some tissue. update later.

treading water

as promised to jen: "i'd rather be at home reading anyway."

i just came back from eating noodleworld with jen. i waited til she got off work and we headed over there. thank god, i was craving their chicken pad see ew for the longest time. for some reason whenever me and jen go to noodleworld with each other, just the two of us, we always end up talking about boys. and weird dreams. weird. maybe it helped that this time we actually sat at the exact same table that me and a certain someone sat at a couple months back. sad how many times he came up today actually...i dont know, whenever i think of him i get really bugged and irritated. maybe cause i know it was unjustifiable on my part. i never kept to what i said, the reason that i told him why i didnt want anything. maybe thats why.

on a lighter note, while me and jen were having our usual "noodleworld epiphanies"  i realized that one of the reasons why i like blogging so much is because it double duties. i have horrible horrible memory. if you were to ask me what i did 2 days ago i would have complications coming up with the answer. so thats why a lot of my posts consist of me saying "and then i did this and then i went here and then i said this" it helps me remember what i did on what day.  i also never realized how amazing film is. in what other form can you watch back and see exactly what you saw and heard 1-5 years ago? --to put it simply, me and jen are majoring in the right things. good night.

luck

christmas dinner was good with the family, my dad's side of the family came over and i ate all their food. usual. haha no but really. the night before i only got an hour and a half of sleep before i had to get up and open for work at 7. worked from 7-6:30. anyway, this morning i woke up and showered, then ate about a pound of honey baked ham :) then i went online to buy some stuff from american apparel cause there was a xmas 20% entire sale!

anyway i just came back from the atm near the arcadia supermarket, i found parking and walked out to the atm. it was beeping and i couldnt find out why until i found out the guy before me left his debit card in the machine. so i took the card and looked to see where he went. he was walking briskly over to the next plaza already. so i hurried and walked after him, but lost him in the large crowd that surrounded life plaza. i started panicking because i honestly didnt know what to do, how could i find him in this mess? but then i came to my senses, how hard could it be to find a white guy wearing a big puffy black jacket in the city of arcadia? so i looked inside most the shops before i found him and returned his card. he seemed confused when i gave it back to him since the atm was kind of far away, but atleast he got his card back?

random pictures from jed and justin's party:

premiere and xmas!

the premiere went well, apparently were favorable to the chinese news papers! anyway, i woke up so late for the premiere that morning. it took me exactly 6 minutes to get ready, before i rushed off to pasadena. we then helped set up, was in charge of admission and that was it! the short played and we just talked to everyone outside of the theater. then the crew and some other people went to eat. we then met up again that night at anthony's house for a premiere celebration! i met this really cool guy there that just moved to LA from London 6 weeks ago. he was definitely legit. haha no but really it was really cool talking to him. for some reason guys with accents always sound more mature and smooth. studying abroad in London? ohhhhh yeah.

surprises

you know right when i think you've stopped impressing me, you prove me wrong. i love that.

i just came back from chesca's new apt. me nicole and chesca spent the day running errands and eating :\ of course. we then went back to her apt to meet up with emily and savannah. only we would have fun drinking beers, eating pizza and scrapbooking. it was nice to hang out with the old group again, i forgot how much i missed them. their company never gets old. anyway, the premiere is tomorrow afternoon and of course me and jen have to be there early to help set up things. so ive set a goal of waking up at 8:45 tomorrow morning.

i miss a lot of people. since ive been back home for vacation, i havent seen much of anyone but the usual people. i should call up people that seemed to have disappeared off the face of the earth.

i really dont know about you. i fail to EVER understand you in any way, so i think im just gonna give up. its been a couple years now and ive given up on you many times. just cause we cant hold a relationship, you find a way to make it impossible to even hold a friendship. you give me major mood swings and it sucks knowing that you still have this stupid invisible hold on me. just stop. it bugs me that youre probably talking to someone i dont like about me. not everyone has to know the situation were in and id appreciate it if you didnt tell everyone that seems to know me. i just dont know what to do with you anymore. i tried backing off and not talking to you for months, but that doesnt seem to help. maybe i do want something, i did want something at some point. but now i absolutely dont. youre ridiculously stubborn and unbelievable. whatever happens, happens. if either me or jen explode on you, you know why. but i have exploded on you before and that didnt seem to do anything, besides maybe make tears form and whatnot. just stop. im starting to regret you and i feel horrible about that. dont make me result to hating you.

sunshine

woke up to the sun this morning! i dragged myself out of bed at 11 and took a shower. then i made myself a bowl of oatmeal and watched me some paula dean. i was freezing still, which didnt make any sense cause the sun was completely radiating. anyway, i flipped through and started watching VH1 cause they had this special on celebrity cougars (yes!) until nicole fabela called me and told me about our math final that i didnt have to take. she then came over and we watched VH1 together. if we ever live together i swear within a week we wouldnt be able to fit in the same room. we'd instantly gain 500 pounds.

so she left to go take her art final and now im here watching some more food network. i read over my history material but im nowhere close to studying for any of it. jen's coming back soon so we could go to the charity dance show tonight. woo!

PYT

just came back from work and my secret santa got me my own little hookah!! :) thanks kristi!

this all reminds me that i have a VERY busy few days ahead of me. i have to study for my history final tomorrow, right when i wake up. then i have to head out to arcadia for the charity dance show. from there im going home and baking cookies for sean and vivian. i then have to wrap those cookies and sean's present. then i have to go to BP to pick up some eclairs for matt to try, since i promised him ever since i started that i would bring some by. from there i have to come back to fullerton and study some more for the hist final. then on friday i have to take the final. go by BR to drop off sean's gift and matt's puffs. then i head back to campus for my appt to check up on my TB results. from there i head back to the apt to pack stuff i need for xmas break. i then head back to arcadia and then eaglerock for justin's party. the next morning i have a meeting with 9 finger productions crew. then on monday were going to another premiere of the "perfect woman" in pasadena. whew. sorry for the ramblation.

freeeeezing

ohh sooo cold. i actually had to wear my snow jacket today. i made the mistake of waking up 30 minutes before my hcom final this morning :\ i jumped out of bed showered, threw on as many layers as i could possibly manage and ran my butt out the door, headed towards college park. i was walking against the wind so the rain was blowing alll over my body. my face, hair and clothes were all soaked within the first 5 minutes of walking. i must have looked like an idiot cause i wasnt exactly walking straight...the wind was so strong that it actually pushed me off to the side a couple times...im a disgrace to even myself.

anyway i took my hcom final but i finished early so me and will went down to the titan underground. he went on his laptop and i studied for my next final. it wasnt long before we got distracted and he told me he was going snowboarding for the first time over winter break. i smirked and wished him good luck. he gave me a questioning look, so i told him about my first time snowboarding last winter. oh jesus. it was horrid. it took me approximately 3 hours to get down the bunny slope, 99% of the time on my butt. i hit my head getting on the lift so bad they had to stop the lift...then they stopped it again cause i couldnt get on...oh and i also ran directly into a telephone pole and fell. horrible. ive never been embarassed so much within a 3 hour period. so after i was done telling him about my luck at snowboarding, i headed off to take my art final. i finished early and met up with nicole. she went with me to go get my TB test in the health office, then we went back to my apt to have soup. mmm. the heater's STILL broken! :(

k off to work...whoever wants ice cream in this weather is absolutely insane. so i suspect the place will be slow tonight.

alone time

decided to take a break from studying for finals. my brain is thumping. thinking is a chore sometimes. i found myself having to stop in the middle of my bio final yesterday to actually massage my temples, my head was starting to hurt. im weird i know.

so as of right now, im pretty comfy. im just sitting here listening to muse, with a big pile of juxtapose and national geographic mags that i need to catch up on. i havent gone through any of my magazines in awhile. i could only imagine what i look like right now. i must have atleast 5 layers on. thermals, sweaters, sweat pants, scarf and my hood on. Michelin would be proud to call me their mascot.

cavatappi and awkward run ins

i had my bio final today at 2:30. i finished it within an hour. hopefully i did well? i felt like i did ok, considering that i started studying for all my finals two weeks in advance...anyway after i finished the final i went with nicole fabela to H&M to show her a coat that i really wanted, i needed her opinion on if it was worth $70 :( im broke!! anyway after that i came back to krystle and justin. we talked a bit and studied. then we headed to the mall again so justin could pay off his phone bill and we went off to corner bakery where i got my chicken pesto cavatappi. i shoulda got the chicken pomodori though :\ its ok. we spent a good amount of time sitting and eating at corner bakery talking and arguing about random stuff. it took us awhile to figure out they were starting to close, but we left and went to golden spoon, got some yogurt and as we were walking out i noticed three guys walking along side us looking at me and laughing. i look over and it was my ex's best friend and his friends...so awkward. oh jesus.

p.s. i love the weather!!!

coldcoldcold

Nicole Fu Photography click to see full image

a year ago we carved all our names into a tree while we were on a trail in pasadena.

last night could have been the coldest night of my 18 year life. i was freezing my butt off, especially since i was wearing tights instead of pants. but me and jen decided to go to 21 choices anyway at 11:30. White chocolate peppermint ice cream was worth it :)

besides that, i basically spent the whole day yesterday shopping for my secret santas and helping out at arcadia bp. there was some incident that a guy stole 6 bags worth of stuff from JCpenney yesterday night with a handgun at the mall. and then daishin told me and jen that earlier that day a 70 yr old asian woman was getting arrested outside of macy's for stealing a backpack and tote bag. it makes me really sad that people (especially now) arent even stealing for themselves. theyre stealing so they can give presents and what not. not too long ago i read an article about how a guy killed his family and then himself because he just could not support them anymore and he was ashamed. i cant imagine how hard that must be. when youre out of options and you cant even support yourself anymore. it was announced that we were officially in recession. hopefully according to the curve, we have nowhere to go but up. i hope.

mush

i think im about to melt into my bed at any given moment. im listening to yiruma and he's making me wish i didnt quit piano. not that i would ever measure up to his status...but i could dream.

amazing

laura marling is completely and utterly amazing.

great ideas

im sitting here full of puppy chow (muddy buddies) from bio. im in desperate need of pulling an al bundy and pulling my zipper down so i could breathe properly. melted chocolate, peanut butter, chex mix and powdered sugar never tasted so good.

anyway! me and the roommates decided to all go out with the rest of the group to go get granny xmas sweaters! i need to run this by the rest of the group but im pretty sure they'll be down. we'll all wear it on xmas or something and walk down city walk. i dont know. we'll find something to do with our newly established looks. i hope i find one that lights up, like the one in the grinch.

STRBCKS

just came back from starbucks with krystle jen and justin. some creepers were on creeping duty while we were there. at first the three of us (K.T.J.) were sitting in front of starbucks drinking our festive drinks. there were two guys sitting directly in front of us playing guitar and singing. one of them was wearing sunglasses...at 8 pm. well the one not wearing sunglasses went into baskin robbins and the guy with the sunglasses grabbed a chair and asked if it was ok to sit next to us. so he grabbed a chair and sat in between me and krystle. he started talking awkwardly about stand up comedy, when his friend came back with his guitar in hand. the sunglasses guy grabbed the guitar and started making up songs about my shoes and my smile cause i was awkwardly smiling the whole time. -btw he was playing only 1 chord the whole time- this went on for about 15 minutes before he decided to stop. his friend justin was pretty cool but the sunglasses guy was a pro creeper. they soon left and thats when our roomate justin came in to save us 10 minutes too late.

starbucks is not safe territory anymore. but the berryblossom tea is damn good. mmm

i missed House!!!! noooooooooo

just text

i apologize that many of my posts are mainly text...i know i can be boring at times and ill try my best to try and incorporate some images from time to time.

last night me and jen decided to go to bed early since she was starting finals week and i was just dead tired by 11:30 (im getting older by the minute). so we got all settled in and we were laying there, until our newly arranged neighbors either next door or up above us decided to have band practice...we delt with it for a good hour and a half before we started getting pretty fed up. it would be different if they were remotely close to being decent but it just sounded like a band of drunks and amps. The only good thing that came out of it was that they played one jack johnson song. but the rest was a complete rumble. ridiculous. anyway they stopped their band practice around 1? or 2? i cant remember. and that is when i drifted off into this really really weird reoccurring dream. It's always me and my friends fighting in some war. our one friend gets really hurt and is in this hospital, which looks nothing like a hospital. we go to visit him and in my dream he knows he dying and so do i but my other friend who happens to be nicole has no idea. throughout the dream were just talking and i just keep crying at the fact that hes dying. but both of us know to say nothing to nicole...-thats how the usual dream goes- but last night it started off with me and jen going to the memorial from the war and we see our names on there. we both looked at each other and ran up with some paperwork to the main office to say that we did not die in battle and that we would like to be removed. the lady nonchalantly took the papers and nodded. thats it. i was thinking about this earlier while i was in class and i figured out why it probably started off like that. right before i went to bed, i was thinking back on this video i saw in my art hist class back in HS and it was a documentary on maya lin and the vietnam wall. there was this guy who fought in the war and his name was on the wall, but he was definitely not dead. theres the source for my startoff for my dream!

im just rambling today...i havent updated (legitimately) in awhile. i want finals week to zoom through so i could go back to hanging out with the crews. i miss them.

driving aimlessly

so i finally got started on my history term paper and finished it! :) 9 pages of script material. so glad i got it out of the way. now i just need to study for finals and do things here and there.

so i woke up today with all intentions of going to the doctor's for my weekly allergy shot. i showered, visited krystle at arcadia BP then headed out to Garfield for the doctors. got there at 2 and found out it closed at 1! so i walked outta there and decided to go to mitsuwa for my mom cause she wanted this japanese bread. so i drove down to almost huntington before realized that live oak or main st was before huntington. so i drove around aimlessly for about 30 minutes before i found the place. it was supppper crowded inside for some reason. but i waited in line for another 30 minutes to pay for my mom's loaf of japanese bread...crazy woman. then me and my sister stopped by trader joes to get some stuff to eat. we got white cheddar pirate's booty, hummus, pita bread and water. we then went back to BP and helped out alittle before we ate the stuff we bought at trader joes. and then i went home to work on some things. and now im done with my term paper! woo! ok update later.

no!! finals week is coming up and cramming like crazy. not that i havent been paying attention to anything in my classes, but theres just a lot to review and memorize. 5 finals. woo! anyway, i havent updated in awhile...i just havent been in the mood, unfortunately. im just waiting for xmas break to start so i could work and maybe afford to get myself a new camera or some clothes.

thanksgiving was fun, we went to sacramento and ate, watched movies, i read and did homework... :( but none the less, i ate! anyway, on something more current, i was looking through my big baige folder full of my old art stuff and screenprinting stuff when i came across my old diary! i started writing in it in the year 2000 so its pretty ancient. to me atleast. i have all my old concert tickets in there. warped tour tickets 2003-2005, still crisp and flawless. crazy. i dont even remember some of the stuff i wrote about. its like meeting the 10 year old me all over again.

heres some pictures of the tan clan happy with thanksgiving food:



uncle will and aunt venise

older sister connie


me happy with food

vanessa happy with food.

things

November 26, 2008

10:45

in the van…on our way to Sacramento! We left around 8 so we’ve been on the road for a little more than 2 and half hours. I slept for a little bit but I got woken up by Jessica…for reasons im not going to mention. Anyway, there was traffic earlier but it’s all cleared up by now. Its raining a little here and there but nothing unbearable. I hope we take a quick stop soon, I kinda need to pee.

From where we are right now, we’ll probably be arriving at Sacramento at about 2:30am. Ahh my head’s starting to hurt. I shouldn’t be typing in a moving vehicle.

So today, my older sister Connie actually got me into reading Twilight. I’ve heard mixed reviews about the series, so I might as well read it and judge it for myself.

Oh thank god! We’ve exited at Fresno for a pee break! Post by later.


12:06

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Im so thankful for my friends family and tradition.